Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Tomorrow will be the visitation portion of the funeral process for my Oma. I have many mixed emotions and I am feeling lost but despite my emotions, I can't help but wonder how my Dad is coping with the loss of his mother. He doesn't talk about loss and he grieves privately. I couldn't imagine losing a parent yet I know one day it will be inevitable. I've been reflecting on all the funerals I have attended and all the people I have lost in my 24 years on this earth. Friends, family, acquaintances, but nothing can compare to the loss of a parent. I have asked my mom what she would like when that inevitable day comes and I have explained to her what I would like should my life be snuffed out too soon. For someone such as myself who usually has a million things to say, I am at a complete loss for words when I try to talk to my Dad. I can tell him I'm sorry but there are no magic words or simple cures for the loss of a loved one. All I can do is be there for him and support him and it doesn't feel like enough. If I can share one thing with you, never forget to tell the people who mean the most to you that you love them. I am thankful that the last words I whispered in to my Oma's ear was that I loved her. She lit up and gave me the most beautiful smile I have ever seen. That's the last time I saw her and I couldn't ask for a better memory.

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